moonman
Where was the dead body found?
Who found the dead body?
Was the dead body dead when found?
How was the dead body found?
Who was the dead body?
Who was the father or daughter or brother
Or uncle or sister or mother or son
Of the dead and abandoned body?
Was the body dead when abandoned?
Was the body abandoned?
By whom had it been abandoned?
Was the dead body naked or dressed for a journey?
What made you declare the dead body dead?
Did you declare the dead body dead?
How well did you know the dead body?
How did you know the dead body was dead?
Did you wash the dead body
Did you close both its eyes
Did you bury the body
Did you leave it abandoned
Did you kiss the dead body
-harold pinter
random thoughts
August 6th 2006(1:35 a.m.)-i havent updated this in a while,some exciting things have been happening i've been recording songs for my next record "moonman" and have been booking shows to play this summer/falland possibly a mini-tour this late fall ,im playing at the CBGB's gallery in New York on August 27th more shows will be posted soon that's all for now -tpm
January 29th 2006(7:56 p.m.)-this past weekend i started tracking for the next batch o'pinter songs with chris fortin,justin davis and friends,we started a song called "willing and able" i'm excited about it it is sounding good thusfar ..well that is all for now gotta keep ya head up -tpm
December 27th 2005 (6:09 p.m.)-Christmas has come and gone ,and there's but four days left of this year and just 2 months and 21 days left of winter i'll be counting down the days till warmth and melting of snow ,in january i'll be recording the song "willing and able" with chris fortin and justin davis
December 21st 2005(6:39 a.m.)-10 days left of 2005 ,i just want to make the next year of my life as important as i can ,i want out of this town ,however i get out i dont care as long as when it's 2007 i'm not here ,i will also try and do alot of collaboration on my next cd,i guess that's it -tpm
December 10th,2005-(7:07 a.m.)-it snowed so much last night , i loathe winter ,i will begin recording my next cd very soon ,hopefully by january,
December 5th 2005-(5:25 a.m.)-it's soooo cold in this room ,ok so there is alot of snow outside ,winter is here ,which means for the next 4 to 5 months i'll be miserable as hell but "ihave confidence that spring will come again,besides which you see i have confidence in me"-familyguy-tpm
December 3rd 2005-it's snowing outside ,long walk home from work .i hate winter so much every year i'm an asshole during this season ,icy sidewalks ,seemingly constant snow ,all you see is white for about 4 to 5 months ,utterly depressing...it's not too cold yet though,thats soon to come.already cant wait till april i guess thats all for now-tpm
December 2nd 2005-it's 7 in the morning cold,but not too cold outside i just got home from work and realized i hadnt done anything on this website for a long time ,had the opportunity to move to New York which is where i need to be ,but lack of funds or genuine idea as to where we would be has made us stay awhile longer, so now i live in a really nice place but in westfield ,it's christmas season and also recording season this winter i will begin recording my next cd "broken hearts and champagne glasses" i'm excited for it ,i just love recording and i havent done it in a while.
my first cd "seperation anxiety" and it's counterpart "moonman" will also be finished .I'll be playing a few shows this winter but will try to play alot of shows in the spring that's all for now -tpm
July 9th 2005(5:45 a.m.)-its very tiring to be in this current state of mind that i'm in...i have a good amount of friends ,and groups of friends,but no one group of friends ever seems to be consistent,it seems like i'll meet a whole new group of people that i become friends with ,knowing that at some point i'll cut off contact with them .but ill know (usually) that when im most freaked out about my life,i can come back to them ,this way i can always have people to be around. I no longer depend on people to make me feel better when im at my lowest point which it feels like i am right now.
I fear failure so much,I tell myself that im determined to make it but doubt it more and more everyday ...,for the past 4 or 5 years since i decided "im gonna be a famous musician" ive been in a few bands that have ultimately failed mainly because the drive to keep going isnt in anyone anymore ,a year or two will pass and your dreams and beliefs can change, I'm only 19 but i feel like i have no time left to accomplish what i need to . I'm a high school dropout ,working at a shitty gas station trying to pay for my tiny little bedroom in the apartment i now call home. I need this so much but it seems further and further away with each day/month/year that passes.I dont think i have much talent and without encouragement I feel i might fall.There was a time i thought about nothing but music I was so confident that i had something special so i spent literally all the time i had on making MY record ,my very first. Its been more than a year since i started it ...and i put all i had into it, but for what? no one's going to hear it ,it's 12 songs that at the time meant a lot to me....now it means shit no one will hear them so why did i bother?music used to be an escape for me now it feels like a chore. I've written all the songs for my next cd(my next attempt to get noticed by someone) for a long time i was very excited about the next batch of songs i had written ,they felt like actual songs to me. My first cd is filled with stupid 16-18 yr old sentiment very dramatic and naieve ,whereas my next record seems to be a more light hearted poppier type of songwriting for me,but alas i still just dont feel that these songs are good enough to get me to where i want/need to be .So when will they be? when will i get it right ? when will i fucking succeed already?! this shithole of a town i call home is draining me of any positivity i used to have. My obsession with making it has ruined many relationships that had started out promising ,i quit my first job of washing dishes because they were going to fire me for "playing too many shows and not working when they need me to ..." im not sure i can do this anymore ...i dont feel like i can make it anymore...endless times of showing close friends my songs that i was very excited about only to have them talk all the way through it and not listen ..but as soon as it's finished they all say "hey man yeah that was pretty good"and move on,how am i supposed to do this? i have no guidelines to follow no money to get good equipment no band to play shows with , just me,myself,and i trying hard to do this basically impossible thing.
But who knows maybe they're all right maybe i wasnt meant to do this maybe i have no shot whatsoever and if thats the casewhat do i do and who do i lean on for comfort? who will asure me day after day "your doing something real here ..keep going...don't give up" but maybe i should..-tpm
shows
August 27th - CBGB's Gallery 9:00 p.m. 5$ cover charge
for booking shows email me here
thepintermoment@hotmail.com
other projects
ifellsleep@aol.com
